Friends

Fake names for certain reasons:

1) Karla

2) Cathy

3) Teresa

My three so called best friends.

1) She was always so concerned about me and seemed to sincerely care. Always there for me...at prac, every time I got the slightest bit upset, she'd leave and give me a hug and tell me everything would be alright, even if it never was. With everything going on in my life, nothing looked good. There was no light at the end of the tunnel, it kept getting darker and darker. Though, along the way, I did see some lights attached to the side of the tunnel, so there were some 'highlight' moments. Like beating a new best time, or going to Kennywood. Other than that, nothing was bright.

2) and 3) I did everything with. Everything. They'd call me and ask me if I needed anything at the store, ask me if I wanted to join along anywhere they'd go. I always felt included. But now, I stay home all the time, or most of the time, or just walk around outside.

I don't really have too many friends. I don't have any friends I would talk to about it. I just don't feel comfortable talking about it. Currently I am not sure who I can talk to, and who I can't right now. But I guess that's alright!

Why would someone want to hurt a friend so bad? Do they not understand? I was 1's friend for a few years....and she has no regret or remorse for just cutting ties. It's not fair, I don't know what I did to deserve this...

I understand that she wasn't the best influence, none of my friends really were great influences. But regardless, I was really happy I had so many good friends. Maybe I should rethink the definition of a good friend. 1 was always controlling, and if she didn't get her way, she would blow up. She's threatened to hit me several times, so maybe it happened for the best. But i am still very hurt...as I am with my other two friends. Everyone had something in common and it all went to nothing.